Laziness is the Enemy

SO, its now MARCH! Two full months complete and already two weeks into March. Crazy. I think I have been doing pretty well so far. Granted I have cheated and eaten so many Delicious things, but overall I have been pretty good.

The only really large issue is, since boot camp ended a few weeks ago and before it ended the last class was cancelled. I haven't really had a good work out in weeks! I have had almost no motivation when it counts. The only time I feel like exercising are when I am bored at work. I get home, I sit down and I don't move. Or like last night I spent my evening in my office jotting down notes but really could and should have taken 20 minutes and gone for a run.

I weighed in this morning and despite my three weeks of laziness I have still been losing weight. The only thing is I have probably started to lose muscle and that is the last thing I want. I won't become a super hero if I jiggle. Super heroes do not jiggle.

Tonight I will be going for either a run on the elliptical, a jog on the trampoline, or perhaps I will go outside and go for a brisk walk as it is finally starting to warm up. I think I might do the elliptical today but who knows. Apparently I can make these plans now and get home and eat muffins all night.

I need to get re motivated... Usually I receive monthly motivation when I receive my Women's Health Magazine. I love the tips they have and the exercise routines always seem so great, however I haven't received it in months and I am getting cranky. I have updated my address and emailed them twice so they better send it soon.

I believe I am resigning up for boot camp. The next session starts soon and I think I really need to be in it. I might sign up for a Pilates class also but that doesn't start for a while so I have time to decide and figure out if I have enough spare money. I know its good to invest in myself and all, but its also good to have electricity and food. I really need the classes to motivate me. Because I always am so out of shape when I start the classes I am motivated to work harder in between because I hate being embarrassed by the super fit perfect girls in the class. I want to be the super fit girl, not the one that's turning purple with a charlie horse in her calve and a stitch up her side.

Any type of class is good though... There is also a fitness hooping one that sounds interesting? I read in Shape magazine that that is how Marissa Tomei stays fit and shes in great shape so maybe something to consider?

Weigh in this week surprised me, I expected to have not lost any weight this week but I was down 1 pound... Based on the pattern of my weight loss since I started, the last three weeks have been surprisingly good. I wonder if its because its muscles that are dissolving... I hope not. I have been really good with my food. I discovered these individual packages of turkey and chicken that are pretty good which are only 100 calories. It is so much deli meat and really I shouldn't eat it all but for 100 calories, may as well. I have been putting it on a weight watchers whole wheat bagel that are only 140 calories. so total 240 calories for lunch? I usually have a muffin as well but that still only brings me up to 355 calories. And I am full until I get home from work at 4.

My muffin kick is still going strong. I love them and they are so good. Its probably going to be an issue because I keep eating too many and not letting them make me full. I really need to do groceries and get a wider variety of foods. Cannot live off of muffins. (However if I could I probably would...)

Dear Walmart

Your pants are ridiculous.

So, as a student/recent home buyer/dutch girl I have never been fond of spending exuberant amounts of money on silly things. One of these silly things is clothing. Mostly because the clothes that I absolutely LOVE do not look good in sizes 12-14. So I settle. I settle with the riff raff sale bins at walmart. I know the clothes don't really look great but I figure why spend money when I don't intend on staying this size forever.... I have been this size for four years and still haven't thought to splurge? Oh well.

My problem is this, my pants that I have been wearing to work are a size 14 from Walmart. Their dress pants fit unusually and uncomfortably small. So when I started my job my pants we crazy tight. Now that I am down 11 lbs and 17 inches, these pants now resemble that of a 14 year old boy in 1996 with their under pants hanging out. Not really work appropriate.

A few weeks ago as these pants started to fall down I tried to squeeze back into my other dress pants I bought without trying on and have never ever fit. They are a size 12 also from Walmart's "I only fit tiny people with obscenely long legs" collection. So when that didn't work I just made sure to wear long shirts to cover any peaking undergarments.

Today, I figured I would try again as yesterday was embarrassing as my old size 14 dress pants are pretty much not attractive and I had to drop off a paper at school. I do not like being at my school when I am in my "normal" 22 year old clothes, let alone in my "grownup" dress pants while everyone else seems to dress like fashion models. So this morning, after facing the humiliating trek at school wearing my baggy old lady pants, I decided to try on my less embarrassing black size 12 pants.

These pants now will go up, and my legs will actually fit so that's good, they are mildly tight on top but I think within the next two weeks they will fit much better, or even once they stretch out a bit from being worn. They are WAY too long. I think Walmart only makes pants for giants... I get that I am short but they are moderately excessive. I need to go get them tailored if I intend on wearing them more often. All in all I am pretty happy that I can now get into these pants as two months ago no amount of Crisco would have gotten these to button.

I need to exercise tonight. I have fallen off the wagon per say with my exercise habits. Stupid essays and midterms. No more excuses! well not until the last weekend in March because then its another paper but hopefully it wont be too awful.

What I have been working on is my food! I have been trying to figure out healthier snacks/breakfasts to eat so that I am full and happy all the time. My friend Emme has given me her excellent recipe for Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Muffins. Holy yum. I like them so very much! I am so impressed by how easy and fast they were to make as well. I could make them healthier next time by buying whole wheat flour, but I wanted to make it easier this time and I already had regular flour at home.

The recipe is really easy, I will post it soon...assuming its not a secret family recipe, I would assume not. But they are fast and if you use the "medium" cups as I did you end up with 24 muffins at only 115 calories. I am testing today to see how long one muffin keeps me full. So far its 8:25 I ate mine at 5:30 so pretty good? I am not starving as I usually am by this time. I could eat but I could almost always eat. I brought an extra muffin with me because I had originally assumed it would make only 12 muffins so accounted for 230 calories. I am super pleased with them. I think it must be the oatmeal filling me up?

So all in all, decent day. Made it into a size smaller pants, had a Delicious muffin for breakfast and will have another for snack and finished my essay on time and handed it in (despite the awkward walk through the halls). I believe tonight I will do some "rebounding" and then use my dumbbells and work on my arms some more. My biceps are getting plenty big but if this little waddle underneath doesn't go away soon I am going to be displeased....If anyone in the world knows how to get rid of the "Bingo Wings" or as I call them "Oprah Waddle" please tell me... I have to go to a wedding in a few months and most dresses do not have sleeves...

Multitasking is not fun

Especially when all of your tasks are undesirable. So this week I haven’t been around much. Sorry! I seem to have had a midterm and assignment within two days of each other as well as working and exhaustion and trying to find time to exercising… and failing at every last one of them.

My midterm was impossible to study for and I did awful, my paper is terrible, work was pretty whatever, I couldn’t sleep in on any of my days off as that now seems to be the norm and exercising, short of jumping on my new mini trampoline a few times I did not complete any kind of challenging goals. I think the longest I “rebounded” (as I have been informed its called) for was 10 minutes. I guess I need to build up my endurance but it is a really good work out.

I need to plan out times to work out and make commitments until I get back into an exercise class. Registration begins tomorrow night so I really need to get the guide and pick a class to take. I would enjoy taking the boot camp again, or maybe a Pilates/yoga class to help with flexibility. I wouldn’t mind an aqua class but I don’t think I am really ready for a bathing suit just yet.

This week I have been focusing on my eating as it was getting a little bit ridiculous. I have decided that my little addiction to fruit snacks is absurd. I really love them and they are the PERFECT snack, but for some reason if I have one, I must eat 17… packages that is. Its really too bad because they are low cal and not too bad for you and taste delicious and are portable and fast. However I will honestly eat the entire box in one day if given the opportunity.

I need to find healthier snacks. It proves almost impossible for me as I am the worlds pickiest eater. It is so inconvenient but I just don’t like so many foods and the ones I don’t know if I will like I usually just don’t try them in pure fear that it will be disgusting and also I don’t like to waste food so why eat it and hate it when someone else loves it? That would be selfish of course.

I just made some low cal brownies! They come from a box and are the easiest things to make but they are so good. I also was given a friend’s recipe for oatmeal chocolate chip muffins. I am pretty sure I ate them at her house when I was little so I am almost positive I like them. And who doesn't like muffins? When I make them I will perhaps post a picture if they turn out yummy looking. I am not the best cook so its likely they will turn out looking like cups of vomit, but we shall see? I plan to buy the ingredients tomorrow.

I don’t think I will lose any weight this time as after my exam and before Chelsea’s dance show I ate more then necessary quantities of pizza followed by dairy queen I didn't even want but bought out of habit. It didn't even taste great… and the girls at the counter were super bitchy. I understand the displeasure of working until 10 on a Saturday night ladies, but if you don’t give the 12 year old her Oreos, she’s going to pout and it is no fun for anyone.

I really need to focus my exercising. I am starting to think that you lose pounds based on eating habits and inches on your exercise habits. Because the weeks where I work out hard core I end up losing inches every where but never much weight and then if I ever have a good food week (oh so rare) I tend to go down in weight by the .2 lbs I get to watch. It is getting frustrating, I kind of hate the biggest loser as it creates these false hopes in your sub conscious. Even though I know there's no humanly possible way to lose 22 lbs in a week, some guy on biggest loser did so it is in my brain that 1 lb is useless. But, that would be scary if I did lose 22 lb in a week… unless I cut off a leg which is not really on my to do list.

Anyways this was just a random I AM STILL ALIVE post. I will post something much more relevant when my brains not fried from writing a useless paper on random theories I pretend to understand. So have a good night!

OH! P.S. While I was writing my essay I didn't feel like citing the same thing three times for each point so I tried to figure out semi colons and Google brought me to this:  http://theoatmeal.com/comics/semicolon holy moly that site is so funny. The semi colon ones not even the best one. How to ride a pony had my laughing pretty good.  Go check it out. I promise you will enjoy it. If you don’t… you are no fun.